p.s.

i am so glad chris is here for me.
i really don't know what i would do.
i love him.
he's such a good friend. (even better than gretchen weiners)
i hope i never take him for granted.
he is so beautiful.
and he always knows how to make me laugh.
even when i don't want to.
love him.
and...i don't know if i'm allowed to say this...but i'm glad he's all mine.
just for right now.
but i know that compromises his happiness.
but not mine.
but...i know there will come a time when he must choose.
and i want him to be happy.
because ultimately, that will be the best moment of our lives.
it's just nice to have someone hold onto me.
with no agenda.
but just to love...
even if he doesn't completely understand what that means.
right now, at least.
but someday...