i'm a beast. and i'm an unpredictable beast. these are two things that should never happen. i try to be calm, and i tell myself that every time this period (ha. no pun intended) comes to play, i will change. i will conduct myself differently. but i think it's just safe to say that i should just seclude myself to associate only with myself. that way i don't blame anyone for my "hurt feelings" or my "bleeding heart" or feeling like no one cares or listens and last, but CERTAINLY not least, my lack of substantial male relationships. i get all hormonal and crazy and pissed off and dramatic...it's just not a pretty sight.
today chris and i got home from our week of carmel training and we have two days off until we jump into our first week. i think it was a good day to end on, seeing that mike our trainer was becoming unbearably attractive to me; those work situations are very hard to learn in. so, though it was sad, it was time. besides, he gave me a little love memento before our parting. GASP! sigh...
it's amazing the memories a certain shampoo can bring back. i found some FINESSE, which i'm pretty sure got recalled maybe a decade ago, but it was my favorite hair product. it was at kroger tonight when i went to find something that would treat my hair to some dignity and respect and there it was. made me so happy.
speeching of being so happy (yes, i said speeching), sara groves greeted me from the mail today. her newest CD that i pre-ordered was awaiting my turn and i'm just now getting ready to stick it in my computer for a listen.
i hope i can be patient and understanding this week. i'm trying to keep track of my actions. i don't want to mistreat people.
jack is snoring over on the couch. i've missed him greatly.
well, i guess this is a good time to just close up for awhile.
God, give me strength to resist the beast that lies within...
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