i carry it in my heart...

so, i recently watched the movie IN HER SHOES, with toni collette and cameron diaz and shirley macclaine.
and at the end of the movie, cameron's character reads to her sister a poem by e.e. cummings called "i carry your heart".
it's a beautiful, beautiful poem. one that carries great meaning for me.
my freshman year, i sang a song by john duke, where he had adapted that poem into song. and it still remains one of my faves. and i would always sing it to katie to put her to sleep. and i remember singing it to her twice the night before she died...because she said she wanted to hear me sing those words to her until her world stopped spinning.
needless to say, i completely bawled at the end of the movie. i mean, i came completely unglued. i don't know that i'll ever be completely healed from my experience my freshman year. and maybe i'm not supposed to be. because maybe that means letting go of the impact she had on my life, and of her memory. and i definitely don't want that to happen. ever.
but, so you can see the beauty of the poem, here it is for you: (if only i had the song to put in here...*sigh*...absolutely beautiful.)

i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart
i am never without it
anywhere i go, you go, my dear
and whatever is done by me is your doing, my darling
i fear no fate for you are my fate, my sweet
i want no world for, beautiful, you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart:
i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart

man, he surely knew what he was talking about. cummings said everything perfectly. i miss katie. but i was blessed beyond measure just having the chance of loving her...