so, i really enjoyed today. it was a very FULL day of training. chris and i woke up at 6:30, arrived at the carmel location for training by 10 am, and set to work, completing our days around the 7:30pm area. it was amazing, and our trainer mike is wonderful, and i really enjoyed the customer service in the realm of retail. clothing stores are much more my niche than banks, that's for sure. and it was the coolest feeling to know i was learning how to be a manager. there were a few things i got lost on during all the expansive closing procedures, but a few more times and i'm sure i'll be on the ball.
it was so awful though; the one draw-back was that jack had to be in his cage ALL DAY! but he was super-excited to see us when we got home, and methinks he didn't hold anything against us. (he's snoring right now, by the way. what a cutie.)
chris and i had a nice heart-to-heart last night. i hope we can learn how to slowly respect each other's space. we're just so used to being so close and up in each other's business that our individuality was never even questioned. i don't know. i think we'll get better here soon.
ok, and happy halloween. no, i know it's not halloween yet, but man, do i have a story for you! chris and i went to a couple of haunting grounds on friday night. it was the creepiest (and craziest!) thing ever. the first was the main street bridge in downtown fort wayne where you're supposed to see a white-gowned lady walk around sometimes. i MAY have caught a glimpse of her, but we were so hopped up on our own irrational fears that i could have made that one up.
and then we went more north in fort wayne, off of dupont, to search for this valley in a road on griffin street where it is said that if you put your car in park at the base of this valley, an inexplicable force will push you up the hill. so, it is pitch black, not a light around and we're freaking out and feeding off of each other's wigging out, but we do it. we put the car in park in the deep of the valley. and we wait.
.........................................and i swear to you, there was a spirit that passed in front of the vehicle. days later it's hard to believe, but we know what we saw, even though we try to explain the phenomenon away by saying it was just a very definitive form of barb's exhaust...that came out of the woods?? needless to say i've had some really crazy dreams the last few nights. maybe tonight i'll have a more sound sleep! i still can't believe we actually did it. and apparently plans have already been made to go back when shaun comes here around thankgiving so we can "investigate". great. can't wait. sheesh.
i think that's a full update.
more to come soon hopefully...
10.23.2007
bigger and better
i'm moving on. well, both chris and i are when it comes to jobs. while chris is getting promoted to be an american eagle manager, i got hired in as one. we'll both be starting out at kokomo and then chris will probably get moved back to the store in fort wayne. i hope my car's up for the drive. that's the only concern. but i helped with a floorset this past weekend and really enjoyed it. although my body is still recuping from it. it was really rewarding to see my work on display. :-)
you're now probably wondering what happened with my bank job at wells fargo. well, to put it plainly, i was tired of the unprofessional atmosphere and the continual disrespect. so this past saturday night, i went and dropped my keys off in the night drop along with the weight of the world that i had been carrying on my shoulders. now, i know that american eagle is not the perfect fit for me, but i know it will be a much better fit than a bank. i have to be able to live a little. and while the pay was nice, i'll be getting paid double for the same amount of work i did at the bank. i'll actually get paid my job's worth.
i think i start training in a week and i look forward to investing into a company that will invest themselves in me.
and there's something about a jewelry box that makes me feel like an adult. but the items it contains reminds me of my 12 year old style. :-) i'm not hatin' it.
now, i must go finish my book so i can move on to bigger and better things.
you're now probably wondering what happened with my bank job at wells fargo. well, to put it plainly, i was tired of the unprofessional atmosphere and the continual disrespect. so this past saturday night, i went and dropped my keys off in the night drop along with the weight of the world that i had been carrying on my shoulders. now, i know that american eagle is not the perfect fit for me, but i know it will be a much better fit than a bank. i have to be able to live a little. and while the pay was nice, i'll be getting paid double for the same amount of work i did at the bank. i'll actually get paid my job's worth.
i think i start training in a week and i look forward to investing into a company that will invest themselves in me.
and there's something about a jewelry box that makes me feel like an adult. but the items it contains reminds me of my 12 year old style. :-) i'm not hatin' it.
now, i must go finish my book so i can move on to bigger and better things.
10.09.2007
another man's shoes
continued faithfulness was too good to be true.
it hurts more than i care to share.
and then i think about how it must be in his shoes. how they must be so painful.
so heavy.
i could not bear to walk in them.
no matter how much shame or guilt i feel or heartache,
his soul must be filled with all these feelings.
what makes him do it?
what makes him hurt himself over and over again?
for just a few hours?
my heart is on fire yet my body is like ice.
i feel feverish all over, and i want to cry and i want to scream and punch.
i want to know everything and nothing.
and the room is spinning and things i believe in are worth naught.
people are people. not God.
people make mistake after mistake.
sex is cheapened to mean nothing more than selfishness.
gifts are made into manipulations.
i want to see life.
i want to feel hope.
i want to feel love.
and warmth and joy.
strength.
i want to rest in the arms of an angel.
if only for just a moment.
or maybe a few hours.
i want to understand.
i don't want to feel destitute.
i don't want to feel despair any longer.
i want to breathe fresh air.
i have chills all along my body.
it has gone cold. not even a blanket of warmth can give me back feeling.
and my heart is now cold. the last embers of joy are dwindling.
but there is always hope.
and i am so grateful that i do not walk miles in anyone's shoes but my own.
God, grant me strength, wisdom, understanding, peace, but most of all, above anything else, love and compassion.
it hurts more than i care to share.
and then i think about how it must be in his shoes. how they must be so painful.
so heavy.
i could not bear to walk in them.
no matter how much shame or guilt i feel or heartache,
his soul must be filled with all these feelings.
what makes him do it?
what makes him hurt himself over and over again?
for just a few hours?
my heart is on fire yet my body is like ice.
i feel feverish all over, and i want to cry and i want to scream and punch.
i want to know everything and nothing.
and the room is spinning and things i believe in are worth naught.
people are people. not God.
people make mistake after mistake.
sex is cheapened to mean nothing more than selfishness.
gifts are made into manipulations.
i want to see life.
i want to feel hope.
i want to feel love.
and warmth and joy.
strength.
i want to rest in the arms of an angel.
if only for just a moment.
or maybe a few hours.
i want to understand.
i don't want to feel destitute.
i don't want to feel despair any longer.
i want to breathe fresh air.
i have chills all along my body.
it has gone cold. not even a blanket of warmth can give me back feeling.
and my heart is now cold. the last embers of joy are dwindling.
but there is always hope.
and i am so grateful that i do not walk miles in anyone's shoes but my own.
God, grant me strength, wisdom, understanding, peace, but most of all, above anything else, love and compassion.
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