have i done anything in my life that has signaled men to not love me like crazy? or that i don't know how to love him like crazy back? i feel like i don't speak in code, and i don't try to be sneaky and manipulate things. but it's just not happening for me. maybe i'll go to a faraway land where there'll be a reason for no one to want to be with me. i don't know. i'm not being dumb and emotional for no reason. i have a reason. but i just care not to share. i went out looking for answers and came back with more questions. but that's usually the way it works, isn't it?
maybe i'm just not anyone's type...
or maybe i'm just super-lame for even talking about this.
i guess it's because during my time on facebook, long-lost friends have come to add me as friends and i look at their profiles to find that almost 90% of them have gotten married and have settled down with children and are just content for the most part with where their lives have led them. it's just strange. for the most part, i too am happy. but where do i put all this love that i have? i don't want to become the crazy person who puts all their life into a song. but honestly...
